disappointed
I am more disappointed in myself at the moment than my situation. I am, after all, experienced enough to realize that crap like this happens (to me on a constant basis it seems) and that for all I want to cuddle/spank/control you fill in the blank each of my clients, I just can’t. I have this huge problem it seems with being just a little too interested in my job, and just a little too focused on it.
The same thing that makes me good at what I do is also my downfall. It could be said that I am too good. I know for a certainty that I am neither too expensive nor too demanding, perhaps I am not expensive enough nor demanding enough. Whichever is the case, it still pisses me of when my effort for anything… for any one of my slaves is trompled over and not appreciated. There are times when a simple thank you can do it, and others when it isn’t enogh.
